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Jan.12,2007I was contemplating today the past couple years of my life and what I have gone through. There are a couple things that struck me at first as bizarre coincidences but upon further thought I now see how the universe had sent me on a journey that is now coming round full circle.
About three years ago, on February 5th 2004 at 9am, I was at the hospital getting ready to have an operation which would determine what type of cancer that I had. Exactly three years later to the date and almost the time I will again be getting ready to have surgery. This time to restore to me what the treatment for the cancer took away, well at least one of the things. My fertility. The dates also coincide with my birthday which is February 7th. Astrologically speaking I was entering my Saturn returns and now I am leaving it.
Being the immensely powerful being that I I’m I guess the universe decided that my journey would not be some fluffy emotional crisis or some bad relationship that I would learn valuable lessons from but instead to put me into a challenge that would bring me as close to death as a person can come, and to bring me back again. From this I have learned more about myself than I ever thought one could know about themselves.
It also coincides with Imbolc the ancient Pagan holiday, means, literally, “in the belly” (of the Mother). For in the womb of Mother Earth, hidden from our mundane sight but sensed by a keener vision, there are stirrings. The seed that was planted in her womb at the solstice is quickening and the New Year grows.
So the Doctor will literally be planting the seeds of life in my belly, and I will become the mother
It comforts me a bit to feel like there is a purpose for the thing we endure beyond making us stronger and capable of enduring worse things. My life although it has never been easy, has never made me hard. I know that whenever I need it I will always find hope in my heart. What a ride it has been, and I know is just beginning for me.
