Living Life

Yesterday we attended a memorial celebration of a friend of ours who died of colon cancer at 30.  It was a beautiful ceremony in remembering a very remarkable woman who touch many many peoples lives. That in combination with the requests from Dr. Silber for some medical history has had me on a trip down memory lane of what my experience was like when I was sick. I remember spending night after night in the hospital, feeling so alone because I had no way to relate what that experience was like to anyone else and feeling like I didn’t want to bring anyone else into that place with me.  I have this old habit of pretending like the things that have happened to me in my life are not a big deal because it is just the way things are.  Listening to people talk about Jen’s struggle with cancer and the things that she went through in her years of dealing with the disease reminded me of what it was like for me and what I went through and although I even try to tell myself that it wasn’t a big deal, it was, it is.  It was something I wish no one would ever have to go through in their life.  It was an extrememly intence expirience, and although I learned so much about myself and what I am capable of it takes its toll.  I am reminded again of how precious every person and every moment is.  How life needs to be lived, out loud, passionately in everything that we do.  Because it is far to common for us as people to just spend our days in routine, living through the paces of life instead of living the life. there is so much wisdom is sayings like take time to smell the roses.  smile,make time, play, love, enjoy life, feel everything. live, every moment is special.