Rodrigo and Joy

Mothers day came and went. I thought that iI might be sad because there hasn’t been any thing happening but it was actually fine.  I went to a womens circle that was about honoring women and mothers and i said my intentions of trying to get pregnant.  then on Sunday I went to a Maya fire ceremony lead by the Shaman that I went on my medicine journey with.  It was really great and magical space and I spoke my intention into the fire and I was asked to beat the drum through the ceremony which he said was to be the heartbeat.  I felt very honored.  It was a good space to be at for that day and i am glad that I went.  So now its back to waiting and waiting.  I know its going to happen soon so stay tuned and I will post right away!

O.K. the waiting is getting old.  I wish there was something I could do to just skip this part.  yell out the happy yeah period started now let move on to making baby.  
I think my cats have become very attuned to my sensitive moods because they are even more snuggly than usual.  curling up with me in the mornings  while I read in bed, they have all the patients in the world. maybe they are trying to bestow some of their cat wisdom onto me.  They say in they purrrrrfect way its o.k. everything takes time. I know I just wish this time would move faster.

we are nearing the 85 day mark, which is when Dr Silber said we should start to expect my cycles to start back up again. sometimes I feel like a sexually active teenager just waiting for  for her missing period.   waiting, jumping at any sign that it might be here.  I  feel a tiny bit  crampy, hopefully it is a good sign. 
I had the second hormone test done with the results being about the same.  so its just waiting.  I am kind of sick of waiting. I am finding the places where my patients is running out. . I just want to get started, I want to start our family.  
so keep your fingers crossed for me, any day now i should get my second First Period.  I will post as soon as it happens, i am sure it will be big excited news for everyone who has been supporting us on this journey.